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| Monday, April 17th, 2006 | | 10:34 pm |
I'm baaaaaaaaaaaack
To livejournal or not to livejournal? That WAS the question. I choose to livejournal =) I've been keeping a mostly private blog, but I miss talking to people through livejournal. So, I think I'll use livejournal when I actually feel like sharing something with you people that I call friends. =P Actually, I get this sickening feeling in my stomach when I think about what it means to be a friend because I think I've been a somewhat disappointing one. Maybe it's all in my head like a sundry of other things because I over analyze myself.. but really..I think I'm horrible at maintaining friendships. I think this might be because I have too high of expectations from my friends, and when they fail to live up to those expectations I lose interest; Consequently, my friendships fade. I think it's also because of other factors like my parents and how (un)willing I am to go out every weekend, the sex factor(as in guy friends), etc. I really miss hanging out with Sarah, Emily, Gaby, and Lisa. I'm glad I've kept up my friendship with Alex..but I hardly ever make plans for us to hang out..I should..hmmm. Alex, Rachael, and I were suppose to go to this teen club in Novi, but now I can't because I have to go to the Chemistry Olympiad competition at CMU the next day :(. I was reallyyyy looking forward to that. Anyway, on about the friends thing. I'm really glad I have Roopa, Avni, and Amrita :) Hopefully, I'll do something with all of you sometime this week. Does anyone want to go see Scary Movie 4 or Ice Age 2 and hang out afterward? That paragraph is kind of funny since I complain in the beginning and then start thinking about how I could fix my problems and then actually kind of plan something... I watched the final episode of Piya Ka Ghar today. The main character, Rhimjim (I think that's how you would spell her name..), who had always made sacrifices for her family and was always underappreciated and often outright criticized because everyone misundestood her, died of cancer. But before she died everyone apologized to her and asked for forgiveness for all the wrong things they did or said to her. And Rhimjim was happy before she died because she finally united the family. Even though I didn't watch most of the episodes, it was really really sad to watch because of the fact that she had to be minutes away from death for people to realize how badly they treated her. It was sad, and it made me think. It mostly made me think about my dad's family's relationship with my mom...It'll be hard to explain everything on here..so I won't. Death is so powerful. Friday night I got prank called by someone. The call came up as restricted and the guy had a darth vader-like voice and said shit like "Don't hang up or I'll kill you" If you know who that was, kick his butt for me. Thanks. :) OK BYE! | | Tuesday, June 21st, 2005 | | 5:48 pm |
I deleted what I wrote here..I don't want people to read my blog. | | 4:28 pm |
Sometimes, I'll start reading a friend's journal..then click on one of their friends and read their journal..and then click on one of that friend's friends and read their journal. haha ..It's interesting. I like reading about people's lives. I like meeting new people. I love people. Current Music: "Mere Khwabon Mein Jo Aaye"- Dilwale Dulhunia Le Jayenge | | Sunday, June 19th, 2005 | | 7:24 pm |
For Father's Day, I didn't get my dad anything, but I made him a good breakfast :) I love my dad. But, I do tend to get annoyed with him and start acting like a spoiled brat :/ . I'll work on it. My cousin Aman and my bhabi Monica just left; So did Puneet and Sabrina (my other cousins). We worked on our girl cousins dance for my cousin Simi's engagement party in July. :) Hari's memorial was touching. I really did love him like a younger brother. He's really an inspiration to me. Afterall, he was always happy and full of energy. I remember when my mom met Hari, she loved him right away. I was a little jealous because she was complaining that she always wanted a kid like Hari- full of life and jocular. I told Amrita I would adopt Hari as my younger brother and take him away from her. Of course I was kidding, but I really did wish he could live with me. "We'd have the best of times", I'd say- and we would. Who wouldn't have a good time around Hari? But besides all that, he was really caring, too. It's unfair that a boy that touched so many lives had to be taken from us without even a warning. Atleast I had the opportunity to get to know him. I'll never forget him; he has changed who I am, whether it's noticeable or not. I love that bandar. I want to go for a bike ride. | | Friday, June 17th, 2005 | | 10:47 pm |
Damn it. I just wrote all this and accidentally clicked out of the window. Here I go, AGAIN..except much shorter because now I'm too lazy to type it all. I stayed up until 4:40 this morning. I haven't done that in a while. I had to get up at 8:30 though to babysit three girls. YEAH. That was fun; It's magical being 6 again for a while. I babysat until 11:30 and then again from 6pm-10pm. I hope I have atleast one baby girl. I will name her Mya. :) While I was eating my dinner, at 10 pm, I rebuked my dad. I'm really worried about him; his cholesterol is WAY TOO HIGH! It makes me angry that he comes home and watches television for atleast 3 hours. I mean, he watches either the news, the travel channel,or the history channel- or the movie he rented; so, it's not all junk, but he needs to be responsible for his health! So after I finished rebuking him, he proposed that tomorrow we both get up at 7:30 to exercise for an hour. *Sigh* Anything for his health. | | Saturday, June 11th, 2005 | | 9:48 pm |
I wish I could bring him back!! I just want him to come back, call me his didi and start shooting some hoops. I love Hari. | | 1:35 pm |
R.I.P. Hari
For those of you that don't know: Hari Mankani passed away last night in a hospital in London. He had a seizure while the plane to London was landing. He was rushed to the hospital, but nothing could be done to stop his seizure. His body can not leave England, and so the family will hold the funeral rites in London on Tuesday. The Mankanis will be returning to Saginaw next week, after the funeral. Current Mood:  depressed | | Friday, June 10th, 2005 | | 11:17 am |
first and now second day of summer
My first full day of summer was pretty nice oh wait..my half day of summer was good, too. Roopa and I went to the CC to teach me to play tennis :) She has patience. We (Roopa, Pooja, Ubah, Sam) and I saw Mr. Cook there, talked to him for a bit. I think he's one of my favorite teachers. First full day of summer: Got up at 8:45 (to make the most of my day) 9:05 I went downstairs in the basement, ran on tredmill 9:40 or so I had to try to fix the refrigerator [My dad spilled home-made yogurt and took out all the compartments and apparently there was a lose "thing" on the side of the fridge..that broke] I couldn't fix it, neither could my aunt. 11:00 I ate lunch/headed for Gretchen's house for the Watergun wars 2:00 Watergun War ended; We girls were destroyed :( If only we could have gone back to my house for supplies......(shaving cream, buckets, eggs, etc.) But I had fun.. in fact..i enjoyed getting shaving cream all over me..except for when it got in my mouth..:/ 2:45 Came home and took a long shower 3:15 or so..i dont remember the exact time..I cleaned. I threw away a lot of school stuff. 4:30 I napped 6:10 I was woken up 7:00 Went to my aunt's house to eat dinner and watch the pistons game My aunt lives in Bay Pointe Apartments. My family use to live there, too. But before we moved in, my dad lived by himself. The fire that took place last week started in his old apartment room. Scary. Today, I got up later, 10:00 (but i went to sleep at 1:30 and i dont think i fell asleep until about 2) Ran on the tredmill again Then came online...and now...i dont know what i'm going to do. oh yeah..shower! | | Saturday, June 4th, 2005 | | 11:54 pm |
| | 11:48 pm |
I watched Mohabbatein again today. It's a touching
movie. I couldnt stop crying while I was watching it. I had to get up
and do jumping jacks and run in order to snap out it. I feel weird now.
I havent cried in ..a really long time. It's okay to cry.. but a i
often view crying as a sign of weakness. Crying doesn't solve
anything..but it lets out emotion..but so does exercise.. dancing..or
playing an instrument. Which, compared to crying, are a lot more..i
dont know..worth a person's time. I like happy tears. That type of
crying is alright with me. Like the filmy.. "i love you, too" type of
crying...or seeing someone after a long time type of crying.
People cry during movies because they can either
relate to a character/characters, the story, or because they sympathize
with one or more of the characters, right? For me, it was a little bit
of both and because I feel like a fish swimming against a ferocious
current. I could relate to that in Mohabbatein..(Shah Rukh trying to
win against Amitabh..a little far fetched, i know).
Anyway, I was on the phone with Amrita today. And we
were talking about music. I let her listen to this song I was listening
to by Enya called "Return to Innocence". It has this African guy
singing in it. I told Amrita that I really liked it even though I
couldn't understand what the African guy was saying. And then I told
her about how I like the Turkish music Nazli burned for me. I like good
music that I can't understand. And I love techno. And so Amrita said,
"You like to feel the music rather than listen to its words" or
something along that line. And so yeah, that's pretty true. That's
probably why I can never memorize songs..I really can't. The
conversation we had reminded me of
Our conversation reminded me of The Chosen.
Which, I've related to my life before (right, Amrita? :p).
Anyway, the part that I thought of was when Danny explains to Reuven
that his father doesn't speak to him because he believes that words
distort feeling.
Current Mood: :(Current Music: "ooh dooh" Barcode Brothers | | Monday, May 30th, 2005 | | 6:46 pm |
Courage
I like this:
I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea
that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. It's when you know you're
licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no
matter what. You rarely win, but sometimes you do. ~Atticus Finch, To Kill a Mockingbird. | | Monday, May 23rd, 2005 | | 10:12 pm |
"Mother's Choice" by Anna Quindlen
I just finished reading an essay that changed my point of view on stay-at-home moms Like the author, I viewed being a house-wife/stay-at-home mother as a sign of inconfidence and weakness in a woman. I felt if I chose to become a s.a.h. mom, my brain would turn to rot as I picked up after my child's mess, cooked, cleaned, what not. That kind of work would make my life so DULL. I felt I wanted to become well-respected after EARNING a title like, Dr. Liza Gill, M.D. (typical desi brainwashing, right??:))I mean, being a s.a.h. mom seemed to me like I would give up myself and be forced completely rely on a man. Self-reliance. That's what I wanted, that's the only way I would respect myself. I still believe that..but after reading this essay, I don't feel that being a s.a.h. mom necessarily means giving up your identity, nor does it show weakness or inconfidence. The author at the end of the essay said: "That's why I did what I [gave up my job to become a stay at home mom]. I did it for me. Isn't that what we feminists were suppose to be supporting, a little healthy selfishness? I didn't feel guilty about being away all day at work. I just knew I was missing the best time of my life. Like today. Two guys asked me to have pizza and watch Sleeping Beauty with them...I could have been at the office, but instead I Did the Noble Thing: two slices with extra cheese and a long discussion of the difference between enchanted sleep and death." I don't know if I'd want to be a s.@ h. mom my whole life, but I don't know, being one for a while doesn't seem like such a bad idea anymore. I'm jumping way too far ahead of myself, aren't I? | | Tuesday, May 10th, 2005 | | 8:42 pm |
adding on to Guy For Liza List -social! - meaning, he can easily stir up a conversation with anyone he meets and generally enjoys social gatherings and what not | | 8:07 pm |
Salman Khan is the worst actor ever. I was thinking about what i want in a guy guy: -open minded -sweet/nice/considerate/honest -intelligent -good sense of humor..or atleast my type of humor -punjabi, preferably..or atleast some type of indian..and the reason this makes a difference is because i think ill be happiest with someone with a similar background..so we can enjoy indian things together..and it would be fun to talk in punjabi/hindi for the heck of it. I could talk more about this..but maybe another time..on with The Guy for Liza List -looks: tall, dark hair..mm yeah he can't be TOO hot..because then i would feel ugly and undeserving of him dinner..maybe ill add on later..or not. Current Music: Turkan | | Monday, May 9th, 2005 | | 7:18 pm |
defeated
Today, I feel defeated. Yay for world. Maybe tomorrow, I'll FEEL better. Nothing will change, but maybe I'll feel better about it. Current Mood: gloomy | | Monday, April 25th, 2005 | | 3:43 pm |
Satisfied
I've concluded that although I have my particularly bad days, I am a happy person. I really am. I have everything I need. I have so many loving people in my life. I dont feel as if I have somehow been cheated, nor do I feel that I am deprived of something (except for fat in certain areas..ahem..). I am truly lucky. I might have a comparatively boring life,i may not be unique, i dont really "stick out"..but I love my life. I am green! Number of times I laughed until my stomach hurt, and I had tears in my eyes (today): 3 Current Music: "Sun Zara"- Adnan Sami | | Saturday, April 9th, 2005 | | 12:55 am |
for everything that's true
I think Aparajit put it best in his lj when he said something like this: a sincere person can not get along with a dishonest person a dishonest person can not get along with a dishonest person a person who is sincere CAN get along with someone else that is sincere and ....damnit.. im sick of liers. im not saying i never lie. of course ive lied. but there are some type of lies i would never tell..or some purposes for which i would never tell a lie. When I look at my friends, I search for honesty. If i can't find it, then I know that one day, if not today, our friendship will end. Anyway, im pretty happy right now because..i dont know..im in a good mood. And since it's the week after spring break, i am refreshed. But still, there are some things that are pestering me..and i just wish i could run away. I just want to get away from everything and everyone. WEll, not EVERYONE..there are certain people im starting to appreciate more and more. Nothing is as it seems. I like that aphorism. People really arent as they seem. I'm really excited about someone i've been becoming closer to :) I love making new friends and learning about their family..interests..beliefs. To me, that's the most exciting part of life: meeting new people and becoming cognizant of how they have had an impact on you/allowing them to impact you. there was something else i wanted to write about..but i can't remember what. | | Sunday, March 27th, 2005 | | 1:56 pm |
 | You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.
Satanism | | 100% | atheism | | 75% | agnosticism | | 67% | Paganism | | 46% | Christianity | | 33% | Judaism | | 33% | Buddhism | | 25% | Islam | | 25% | Hinduism | | 0% | </td>
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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wow. never even thought about it. but uh..i'd rather not have my name attached to any belief system. 0% for hinduism? flabbergasting. | | Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005 | | 5:15 pm |
MY SENTIMENTS, EXACTLY!
It's not that easy being green;
Having to spend each day the color of the leaves.
When I think it could be nicer being red, or yellow or gold...
or something much more colorful like that.
It's not easy being green.
It seems you blend in with so many other ord'nary things.
And people tend to pass you over
'cause you're
not standing out like flashy sparkles in the water
or stars in the sky.
But green's the color of Spring.
And green can be cool and friendly-like.
And green can be big like an ocean, or important like a mountain,
or tall like a tree.
When green is all there is to be
It could make you wonder why, but why wonder why?
Wonder, I am green and it'll do fine, it's beautiful!
And I think it's what I want to be. | | Monday, March 21st, 2005 | | 10:09 pm |
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